It's all too hard.

I just want my Dad to live. I just want him to live without the pain and for the cancer to be gone. But God isn't listening and He isn't doing anything. I don't see how any of this can be for good and I am finding it extremely difficult to see God's hand in all this. Psalm 4:3 I think suggests that we look at our problems in the light of God's power instead of looking at God in the shadow of our problems. Well you try doing that while you stand and watch as cancer is trying to crush your Dad and let's see how you look at things. I am trying really hard but it is extremely difficult. I want to be positive. I want to say that I can see a happy end to this and that my Dad will be the first man to be cured of this. But when I watch him at night...it's so hard to hang to that hope. It's so hard to not be angry at God.