So lots of things have been happening. My Dad has been to hospital several times to have operations to kill the nerves causing pain. The first time it did not work and Dad was in agonising pain and he had to go back in almost straight away. He's now had four operations. He went to the oncologist recently and the oncologist has now said that he won't offer any more treatments because the cancer is too far progressed for chemo to make any difference. The nurse also said that dad's oxygen levels are too low. At the moment he does not need to have extra oxygen but his breathing is getting worse. Dad said that it is getting worse because the cancer is filling up the space of his lung. He also said that he doesn't feel as though he has his ten year plan left in him. That is really hard to take in. It's all a little too much to take in. I knew that Dad wouldn't want to take anymore treatment but I never thought that the offer of treatment would be taken away. That isn't good at all. Dad said that he isn't giving in and giving up but that he wants to enjoy what is left.
We're talking about his funeral and he found a lovely poem but Mum doesn't want to acknowledge the situation which is frustrating. Dad didn't chooset his and he doesn't have a choice to ignore it, so why should Mum? I love her to bits but she needs to start facing things.
Dad has an appointment next week with the nurse who will discuss with him the Do Not Resuscitate form and the will to live form. Again, mum doesn't want a part of it. I said to Dad that I would be there if he wanted a hand to hold.
I don't want my Dad to die. I can see the coming months becoming harder and harder. I am not looking forward to it at all. :(
